Trying to Be Good

Emelia at Trying To Be Good is one of my favorite bloggers because of her raw honesty about everything.  In the “about” section of her blog, she is described as a “Social Acupuncturist” who “needles in to the heart of the matter” – and nothing could be more accurate, in my opinion!

Her post from the 15th of this month really stood out to me – especially the last three “paragraphs.”  So much so that I’m breaking my own rule about singling out any one particular blogger (other than for awards) and sharing it with you today!

The emphasis is all my own.

I expect the worst but I keep getting the best.

By Emelia Symington Fedy 

I think the baby growing inside me is dead.

I think I will never work again.

I think my husband is a homo because he is such a snazzy dresser.

I think I am poor.

I think I am not supported.

I think my mother is dying.

I think my neighbors hate me.

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I can feel it kicking.

I have been doing what I love for 15 years.

He told me it would be more likely he will cheat on me with the 16 year old babysitter.

I have affordable and reliable 2 bedroom, 2 level, no rodent, clean and quiet housing.

I have lots of friends, family and a dog that would totally bawl their eyes out and maybe even beat their chests if I died.

I get to spend time with her and prepare for it rather than be blindsided.

Fuck my neighbors.

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You are not only what you think you are.

The universe is so much smarter than that.

Your life is so much grander and gorgeous and blessed than the shit inside your head.

Uncomfortable as it is, I know, you better learn to accept all this beauty because it’s going to keep coming for you.

You might as well try to feel the warmth.

But I’m used to difficult. I know how to feel pain.

Isn’t it funny how the most challenging thing really is to figure out how to hold all the light.

It’s almost to heavy to bear.

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Because even with the pushing and flailing and arguing and commiserating…it keeps being better than good.

I expect the worst and I keep getting the best.

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God keeps proving me wrong.

How annoyingly incredible is that?

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Photo Credit: TryingToBeGood.com

Like what you read?  Check out more of Emelia’s amazing writing at TryingToBeGood.com

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3 thoughts on “Trying to Be Good

  1. Andrea.. I popped over to have a look .. read a few of her posts and signed up to follow immediately… don’t ask me why.. or for that matter how I will ever comment on her blog… but I must admit I did enjoy her writing and sense of humour… she certainly says it how it is in her eyes and that, I like to think, is how I am.. a straight shooter… well maybe not quite in her class but similar…

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