Read the original post here: Burning Bridges
It’s taken me a while to write this post because, well, I guess I find it hard to update people on something that still has no resolution. But I did think a lot about what everyone said, and in the end, I’ve decided not to burn the bridge – so I guess that’s something new anyways!
“Personally, I believe that such soul counterparts do exist and do not always exist on the same plane or in the same lifetime with us…but when they do!!! It is abundantly evident to those so entwined in which case we may light that match and watch ourselves go up with other…” –Blackshepherd (In a comment here)
Instead I took a piece of advice here, and a piece of advice there…and here’s what I’ve decided to do.
I reached out, but not with an olive branch – not completely anyways. I explained to him my position, and what I needed from our friendship, and then I let him know that the door was open, but it was up to him to walk through it when and if he was ever ready.
He hasn’t written back as of yet. Though I’m giving him time, since he tends to be as slow as a tortoise when it comes to processing things. It’s always driven me a bit batty honestly!
In the meantime I’m going to do what some of you wise folks suggested, and keep the bridge there – but stop using it for now. It may sound naive, but since so many of you could relate to my past post, maybe you can relate when I say that I just know that it’s not over. We’ll talk again, someday, because that’s the nature of our relationship. That’s why it’s worked for so many years and that’s why it’s been so hard. That’s what makes someone your person.
It’s going to be difficult using other bridges instead. For one, we have the same friends! And for two, he gets me in a way that no one else I know does. I don’t have to use words, I can just look at him and we’ll have an entire conversation with our eyes. I don’t have to explain anything to him, because he just knows.
“Each time a man looks into your eyes, he is only searching to find himself; for he knows already, that he is part of you” –Jeremy Aldana
Even if you’re 3,000 miles away, just knowing there is someone who understands you in the world, is a really important thing. You don’t have to see them every day, or even talk to them every day, to benefit from their friendship either. Just the knowledge that if you ever needed them, you could pick up the phone and at any time of the day they would answer it, listen, and understand, is a comfort.
I guess I don’t quite know how to go out there and be me, without knowing he’s there somewhere in the background. As with all things in life, this will be an interesting learning and growing experience.
I do not know where it will lead, but I trust I will end up exactly where I am meant to be.
Anyways, I just want to thank you all again for the wonderful advice you gave, and all of the thoughtful comments. It was so unexpected and I appreciate it so much! I hope this next update helps some of you who were in the same situation feel like you’re not alone, like all of you did for me :)
P.S. I got sick and things got crazy so I failed at responding to all of the original comments as was my intention, but please know they meant the world to me. Thank you!